This is unlike any other communication in that it directly and unerringly exposes the illusory sense of separation which veils oneness and illuminates the inevitabile futility of seeking.
It seems that in the boundless energy that is oneness there can also arise a contracted energy which brings about apparent self-awareness. A powerful and convincing sense of self-identity seems to arise together with a belief in personal free will and choice in what is experienced as a real life story. All of these personal experiences can only apparently arise in what seems to be a very real but dualistic reality in which everything appears to be separate. This sense of separation can bring with it a sense of loss and a need to seek guidance, an understanding or a path or process that can promise fulfilment. There are attempts to seek unity which are totally futile because the separate seeker is apparently the very dualism from which it is trying to escape.
This dilemma is illuminated in this unique communication which makes no demands, has no expectations and does not cater in any way to the seeker’s need for answers, processes or a path to follow. This uncompromising message can be both confronting and liberating.
The whole personal investment in making spiritual progress, becoming more aware, more still, more open or more anything at all can simply unravel in this radical revelation. The whole perception of “the self” or “the world” it seems to live in, can be transformed and leave nothing to support the illusion of personal separation, control and continuation.
Suddenly, the absence that was feared is the absence which is unknowable, but paradoxically is also the very fullness, the freedom that was longed for.
Excerpts from the new book 'This Freedom'
The open secret communication can only point to the simple wonder of being, and attempt to illuminate the futility of seeking for it. It does not accept or reject the teachings of spiritual path or process but it will expose, without compromise, the singular and fundamental misconception that drives the belief that there is something called a seeker that needs to find something else called enlightenment.
The sense of being a separate individual feels very real and affects every part of that apparent experience. It is a state of contracted energy which becomes embodied and which brings with it a feeling of disquiet and longing. There can be a held sense of feeling unworthy and of having lost something indescribable. It is as though the 'me' resides within the boundaries of the body and sees everything outside as something else with which it has to negotiate. Out of these experiences is generated a compulsion to continuously seek comfort or release. This is the dream of individuality which seems real until it doesn't.
No amount of effort, process, clarity or belief can ever bring anything other than more 'me' searching for that which the 'me' cannot have or know.
Often because the 'me' feels it has lost something, there can be a sense of inadequacy and so what is pursued is a teaching that satisfies the need to do something which will bring about a personal transformation and make the 'me' worthy of fulfilment. All of this activity is apparently happening within the story of 'me' which is functioning in an artificially dualistic reality. So 'me' is searching in the finite for that which is infinite. It is a something looking for another something, and what it really longs for remains unobtainable by already being everything. It is rather like trying to catch air with a butterfly net. It isn't difficult, it is wonderfully impossible. The essential futility of that searching inevitably fuels the sense of a 'me' who feels even more unworthy and separate.>
I am where I am and it is limited and not the truth – so what is the next step?
There isn’t a next step. If there is a sense of 'you are where you are' that is what is happening. That is the way it is. There isn't a truth. The idea that you are there limits that 'me' in the experience of being separate. What is being suggested here is that there is no 'real me' and no 'real' limitation.
But there is experience in this locality and not in that locality.
But that is your experience. The problem for the 'me' is that it experiences, and apparently knows and is aware that it exists. It believes that it is real and that is the dilemma. There is nothing that can let go of it and there is no 'real' location.
Is the deconstruction also unknowable?
Yes, because it doesn't happen. There is no real 'me' to vanish. So-called liberation is the apparent end of something that was never happening. You aren’t happening, you feel you are. What is being suggested is that that is an illusion. All the time 'me' is trying to deconstruct 'me' it is just strengthening the illusion. Its energy is to find something and to move forward. What the 'me' is looking for when it tries to deconstruct itself is an object called 'no-me'. 'Me' is trying to investigate 'me' all the time, so that it cannot be 'me'. It gets stronger and stronger trying not to be 'me' . . . apparently.
You can describe it as utterly chaotic . . . is there any pre-destination?
You could say that this appearance is both ordered and chaotic. There is no predestination. If there was there would be something destined or planned. There is nothing planned because there is no future, there is no past, there is only this. All there is is 'isness', it is not going anywhere. It can't be known and the problem for the seeker is that they are looking for something to know, like peace, silence, presence, awareness or detachment. It thinks it can know that thing and have it and own it. But that is the dilemma, as it can never know this, or be this, or control this.
Does there need to be surrender?
No, there is no one who surrenders. There is either a 'me' or there isn’t a 'me'. 'Me' is separation, 'me' is the seeking. There isn't anything that surrenders into not being 'me'. Surrender or acceptance are part of the story.
So there is nothing you can take away from these meetings . . . no personal teaching, no formulas, no processes or beliefs. You can’t 'do' or 'not do' what is communicated here. Also you can't get it right or wrong. There simply is only what is and is not . . . that’s it. And wherever you go and whatever you do, think or feel, that is what is.
It is the only constant that never comes and never goes away. It is the perfect lover . . . it is the abiding song of love that is nothing and everything.